Just a smile to hide the pain inside, 

Just a smile and say that everything is okey,

Just a smile and then look away, 

Just a smile and then cry in secret.

I feel sick everytime i think about it, I feel sick becouse I know that it never gonna be the same. 

But the big question is WHY? And I do not understand and i do not have an answer, but the things I do know is that i never vill get one. And that kills me inside. 

I try to be happy but its not easy. I just want to have the right answers why do i feel this way and why is it så hard?